I'm lonely what should I do?

I am anti-social and lonely .x. I was born with a disfiguring problem called gynecomastia which makes a guy have and it isn't due to being fat or overweight. I am 6ft tall and weigh 165-175 (it fluctuates)but I still have these little s that I used to get teased about all my life growing up so, I know girls wouldn't like me if I have them, and I can't get a job because I was teased so much I am constantly thinking about it. I can't go to a doctor (psychological or surgical) because I have no money, and no family members to support me, no friends at all and I've written the government for help and they don't care. So I am very lonely all day at home in my room unable to do anything. I feel so hopeless and useless and I just don't know what to do. I have never had a gf, I only had one job but was laid off because of my anti-social tendencies and shyness. My aren't even huge or anything, they're definitely not masculine but they certainly aren't large (maybe half a hand full or so) but still I cannot battle my anxiety with logic, it is too over powering. I am fairly certain that surgery would help, but It costs WAY too much so that is definitely out of the question. I feel like I am wasting away, I have been sitting here at home for over 8 years just waking up, sitting here online asking and answering.. playing games, cleaning house, feeding animals, eating and going back to sleep. I am trying to hype myself out of my anxiety but I can't get myself to do anything. I am tired of this meaningless life of emptiness What am I supposed to do when I am unable to get a job, unable to overcome the anxiety and anti-socialness, have no friends or family who can help me and the government won't either. Do I just sit here the rest of my life an empty lonely hermit? I see nothing else that can happen unless I win the lotto or something. I just wish there were a god, I know there is not but I wish there were, so I could ask that god to please help me out of this meaningless pit of nothingness. I asked the Catholic church for a little charity to help me, they turned their backs just like everyone else. I don't know, I feel like I am living inside a nightmare..why must I live alone, it drives me mad.